Its called : "LOVE"

something i dont understand .. do you?
sometimes it could be so flowerie in a sec.. and turn into breeze of rain.. tear down all of your emotions..

its harmless?

i dont know .. my heart is bumping inside out..

"unconditionaly LOVE"

it hit my brain because most of us facing "conditionaly LOVE" whether we realize it or not..
we realize it.,
we dont realize it..
we realize it but we resist to admit it..
and so on..

...

Morninggg..

Selamat Pagiii..

:)

secangkir teh ditemani dengan dua buah kue .. : sebuah pie susu dan tart portugies --> yummy!!
berbekal dengan perfect breakfast, i hope today cud be a brighter day.. and such a beautifull day for me, you, and everyone..

so.,.. have a very good monday !!!

What people "says" or "think"

When it comes to what people "says" or "think" .. our world could turns up side down whether its a happy thing or a sad thing they blabbering about us..

we could shed some tears or laugh out loud..

it's a good thing when you could laugh out loud and share it with friends or people you love..

and it's gonna be a worst condition for you when people blabbering about "bad" things about you..
when they put their perspective, trying to configure how and why we act that way without asking or looking for the truth from us.. huff.. its really hurting..

for some people they have a strength to ignoring this situation..
for me?
im not having the strength to become an ignorance person.. i just can shed some (or lots) of tears..
how about you?

how important hearing or knowing what people "says" or "think"?

10 things I want to do when "Feeling Blue"

There's so much list things that you could find to fix your mood when your feeling blue. some of us feeling comfortable to let the feeling ruins our day.. some choose find a way to get rid of those feeling.
for me,, it depends on what story that could brings you to de "blue" mode ON.
if it something that could give a lesson for me, i'll think about that and find the lesson behind it.
but if it something that couldn't give any lesson for me and it more to kill my day, i have some list down 10 things that i want to do when i'm feeling blue :

1. Put my headphones on go to quite place (library, small cafe) while just quite sitting there or read a novel or so
2. Go to the mall and empty my pocket to gain the happiness back by shopping
3. Hang out with my boyfriend going out all day
4. Come to my bestfriend house chit chat and doing some crazy things (its not using drugs or any negative things.. it cud be trying a hillarious kind of food.. trying anything new)
5. Getting busy with my fam.. 
6. reorganize the shape of unorganize cloths cupboard or cleaning the house
7. Pick up the phone and call all of my friends and gather up
8. Collect the information about travelling.. boost up money, mood and get on the plane
9. Collect all of my beads collection and made some jewelery
10. Do some exercise 

The most crazy thing is im in the middle of that "blue" mode and i don't know how i'm supposed to deal with that while no one knows and nobody could know.. they could have a missed interpretation about this. well.. its just another "celotehanharianyangingindiceritakan.com" by me which not that "penting-penting" banget and just the outcome of my temporary "blue" mood.. hufftt...

Onty.. 
today is your Birthday.. 

A Mom gives HOPE when life is low A Mom's a place where i can go 

A Mom is HONEST 

A Mom is TRUE

A MOM is YOU

i couldn't give much to you.. because none of this things in this world compares with the scent of your kindness..

"God must have made a special plan to give me such a loving and caring angel as a mother like you.."


even it's love, my love isn't perfect enough compared with the bunches of LOVE that you've gave to me.


"You were the only one who believed in me when others didn't. 
Thanks for standing by me even when i was wrong.. On your Birthday I want to tell you that I Love you so much"



i don't know how to thank you for all the caring, love, patience, sheltering, tutoring that you kept give to me.

I find myself wondering...

Did I give you your due..

For all that you've done for me

Did I ever thank you?

For helping me deal with life's stresses

For helping me accept my defeats

And celebrate my successes?

Or for teaching me the value of hard work,

Good judgement, courage, and being true 

The laughter, smiles, and quiet times we've shared

Did I ever thank you? 

If I have forgotten, I'm thanking you now

You taught me right from wrong....

I hope you know how much you're loved and appreciated

I hope you, instinctively, knew all along.

i'm not good in words.. we both do..


"Your arms were always open when i needed a hug. your heart understood when i needed a friend. your gentle eyes were stern when i needed a lesson. your strength and love has guided me and gave me wings to fly"
- Sarah Malin -



you are my mom.. my onty.. my bestfriend.. the most precious person in my life. 

Happy Birthday to YOU 

Happy Birthday to YOU 

Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday 

Happy Birthday to YOU 

MY Loveliest Maash.. 

This Saturday..

Pagi-pagi around 8 o'clock my lil sister woke me up and say 


"sister.. sister.. Wake Up,, lets go to the saloon.."
"mmhh... okey.. wake me up on 5 to 10 minutes ok?"
"okeey"


10 minutes later..


"Sisterr.. its 10 minutes olreadi.. get up and wush to the saloon.."
-- the voice is so annoying *but i love her so* and im trying so hard to get up --
"olrite.."


aku bangun dan melakukan early routine *no taking bath* just -- Cumukitagi a.k.a cuci muka kaki tangan dan gigi *hahahag lol*
bertiga kita "The Bungurs" mampir ke salon deket rumah "Eko's Salon"


*Eko salon yang punya seorang cowo *let say its more to in-between* langganan kita, jaraknya dari rumah sekitar 500meter.. biasanya kalau aku Pelayanan di thamres pagi, jam 7 aku ngetok pintu salonnya buat minta diurusin rambutna. berawal dari coba-coba iseng aku mau creambath murah dan males pergi jauh, onty tertarik dan prefer untuk doing stuff there klo lagi males kemana"*


Onty ngecat rambut + blow rambut.. ain hair spa+ ear candle + blow rambut.. aku masker rambut + massage punggung + ear candle..
* pas ear candle tidur boss.. ampe ngiler . hahahag*


setelah dari Eko's salon, aku baru sadar kain yang diberikan teman aku yang akan nikah tanggal 9 Juni nanti dan belum diapa-apain sama sekali *urrgh.. nikahannya pas hari ultah aku .. bisa benerr daaah* aku minta mash (onty) taking me to mayestik buat beli kain tambahan (plain banget soalnya *which im not that plain-type-of-gurl*


After that..
kita ke blok-m square buat jait baju.. erm, pas di mayestik rencananya cuman beli kain tambahan doang buat aku, end up aku beli 4 kain buat 3 dress, onty 1 ain 1.. hahag..
sampailah ke tempat uda *entah siapa namanya :p *
sampai disana ketemu orang ambon yang lagi jait baju ambon gitu yang kainnya percis banget sama kain yang aku pakai buat wisuda S2.. arrh,, suka bangettt ama tu kain. sama bung dan usi ambon itu kita ngobrol-ngobrol sebentar jadinya. Omong punya omong diajakin makan makan bareng karna ada kumpul-kumpul ambon yang acaranya aku lupa dimana *hadee*

Setelah jait baju..

laperrrr banget kita, dan they ask me to treat them *baru abis gajian ceritanya* 


so, i took them to Gio Vanese di Gandaria City.
Onty oreder platter of apa gitu.. 


ain lasagna + apple cobler.. 
aku Spaggeti marinara + Choco' brownie *arrrghh i love it soo dang much!!*
fiuuhh.. itu kenyangnya ampun ampunan.. lol

Rencananya setelah makan kita mau ketempat oma, jenguk oma.. soalnya kondisi oma sempet nurun banget akhir-akhir ini. tapi berhubung udah agak sorean kita mutusin besok sore setelah aku pelayanan di UPH baru ke tempat oma.

suddenly onty said :

"pengen ke parade deh.."

-- dengan the power of shopping aku dan ain said

"ayoooooo"

Sesampainya di Parade..
masing-masing langsung ambil posisinya, ain ketempat anak-anak..
onty ke bagian kemeja..
aku random, ke bagian kemeja, dan the other girls stuff
1 jam kemudian onty get what she wants, and so do i.. but ain haven't got what she want.. so she count how many stuff that i and onty get :

"how many clothes you get there mom?"
"i get 3.."
"and you sis?"
"i get 3 olso"
"... i just get one.. mm.. wait ya.."
-- she's come back to kids stuff and searchin for the other clothes until she gets 2 more as equal as me and onty get hahahag --




and then we're heading to Vila Melati Mas BSD
*this is where The Sujadies -- Qt, Mas Jadi, Keandra -- and Ma Non -- Qt's Mom, Onty's big sis -- stay*
when we got there, The Ardhyan's are chatting and playin around --The Ardhyan's is Mas ai, Ka Bebi, and the handsome Amadeo but mas Ai lagi di Ausie -- 


while im playing with the kiddos, the mommies and grannies GCGT --Gatherin do some Chattering including Gossiping Togather--
karena agak gregetan, i handed over my job watching deo and kean to ain.. end up mas jadi yang naik dan watching over them hahahag


mendengar chattering mereka yang ngalur ngidul itu aku hanya menambah bumbu saja disaat ada topik yang menarik,    -- well, nanti dibuka topik ini di sesi selanjutnya.. hahahag. karena ka bebi baru pulang dari Bali, jadi kita kebagian oleh-oleh *sebenernya ngiri sih, pengen bener itu ke bali.. :( lombok deng *


seharian ini aku spent time with onty and ain yang dimana onty said :


"ini udah lama banget loh chey, chey ga pernah jalan sama maash ma ain bertiga ampir dua taunan kayaknya.."
"hahahag.. iya ya onty.."
"iya, biasanya kalau ga kepotong jamnya ya ada yang ikut"
"hahahahg.. iya juga ya kalau ga diinget-inget"
"haduu.. tapi ya, itu anak tuh udah baik banget ya chey, tapi sayang ya.. "
-- pembicaraan jadi jumping ke arah aku dan the-eX -- *another censored thing , i dont want to talking about that no more*


and do have so much fun being with them..
I love them so much, i cud do anything for them.


i LOVE onty so much.. she's my mom, i look into her eyes and see her just like my mom *i miss my mom though :( * 


i'm so happy God's been so good to me, for giving those two angels beside me..


IT'S A LOVELY SAT-OUR-DAY !!!

23 going to 24

Menjadi seorang perempuan di umur 23 going to 24 membuat beberapa pertanyaan untuk diri sendiri

yang paling sering terpikirkan dan terlontar dari pembahasan keluarga adalah tentang "Pernikahan". 

sebelum nyokap pergi, sempat terucap keinginannya untuk melihat anaknya menikah di umur 25...dan tentunya aku meng-iyakan hal tersebut.

sebuah rencana pernah terpampang in my mind.. 

- sudah mempunyai pacar yang sudah dikenal 2 tahun lamanya

- mempunyai pekerjaan yang cukup stabil

- kesiapan mental untuk membina rumah tangga

Rencana itu bisa dikatakan sudah mencapai 70% , sayang disayang bukannya semakin mendekati 100% malah semakin menurun mendekati 0. yang berarti titik akhir rencana tersebut kembali menjadi sebuah angan yang masih harus dibina kembali. Just like John Lennon said "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other Plans" well.. this is the life that i've livin' with. 

"Traveling around Indonesia" 

ini impian aku banget yang harus dilaksanakan sebelum "pernikahan" itu terlaksana...

hufft...salah satunya adalah "Raja Ampat" masuk dalam "my must list" 

"having my own car"

well.. its kinda a really must!

pertanyaan mengenai ketiga hal itu aja dah bikin agak mumet diantara load kerjaan saat ini.. hahag.. mempertanyakan kapan, bagaimana cara untuk mendapatkannya. well.. mungkin lagi agak sensitif mendekati hari ultah gw yang sebentar lagi mengantar ke umur 24.. hadeee 

Yes It's True

Victoria Justice - You are the reason why

It's lovely.. and it's TRUE

Heil "Free-day"

Dibangunin pagi banget ama ma'ash.. 

hadee.. ga bisa tidur lagi, apakabar ntar malam ya? hahhahag

bangun"   utak-atik isi kulkas dan taraa..... "MONDE" is   in the House..

Untuk ukuran  hari "free-day" ini pagi ak agak kasian..

WHY? i have  5 reason why :

1. Ga cukup tidur (gimana caranya ntar  malam jalan ya? hadee)

2. Pulsa internet iphone "HABIS  MASANYA" +  No PULSA Telpon

3. hahahag.. claim-an kantor blom keluar dan Kantong  saya sudah Kering!

4. Agak males ngangkat pantat buat ke kamar mandi and get ready to the office.. hahahhag

5. agak-agak berasa tenggorokan sakit, batuk", meler... hadeeee....

- Hey "free-day" give me a break - 

Blogging *again*

Sudah  "beberapa kali" aku membuat "blog" di blogger ini.. hahhaag..
dari diary.org, online diary, wordpress juga udah pernah saya santroni "hmmm..."
Permasalahan intinya adalah, pada saat aku lupa paswordnya dan loginnya.. mood buat nulis pun gone in a while... hahaag --> such a moody type! dan setelah dibuka ternyata banyak cerita konyol dan "old chapter of mine" yang sepertinya agak buat malas untuk diteruskan lagi.. hahahag -> excuses!
well.. lets try my mood for this one.. how long it cud last ? hahahhag...